Let's take a moment to appreciate the way this feels
We won't come back this way again
It's hard to tell for sure which elements of this are real
And which are chemically enhanced

I'm pretty certain that I'm here because I want to be
But it's not easy to tell what I want from what I need
This fucking sickness is disintegrating all of me
Soon I will be nothing more

Than a puddle on living room floor
No longer capable of rational thought
Just a stomach and a jumble of nerves
I had something to say but I've forgotten how to say the simplest words

Let's take a breath and then another til the feeling slows
Then maybe we can try again
I hate this body, I hate this body,
I am more scared of myself than I am of anyone else

And oh I am so sorry for the way I come and go like this
Although you tell me you don't mind
The trouble is I've never navigated out of this
It grows until I'm nothing more

Than a puddle on the living room floor
No longer capable of rational thought
Just a stomach and a jumble of nerves
I had something to say but I forgot
I guess it's not important at all
These days I struggle with hello and goodbye
So if it's cool with you that's all I'm gonna say
All I gonna say
Yeah, I think that's all you're gonna get from me tonight

This body is built on the ruins of all the people I have ever been
Wise men build their houses on rocks
While the rest of us settle for skeletons