Tonight let's eat hot chocolate
Straight from the tin
Count our heartbeats until the sugar kicks in
You eat it slowly, you can make it last all night

Tonight let's turn the tv up loud
Waterboard ourselves with aspartame
And masturbate til all the oxytocin runs out

I mean
How could it be possible to drown yourself in joy?
How could it be possible to drown yourself in joy?

Tonight let's turn the shower right up
Full blast and hot
Lie down in the bath like it's a casket or a cot
And try to sleep
But we won't sleep
I thought writing it down might make me wanna stop

But I want more and more
And more of this
Til there's no room in me

I mean
How could it be possible to drown yourself in joy?
How could it be possible to drown yourself in joy?
I can barely hold my head above the surface of this joy

What do you make of this?
Sorry to over share
I guess I never really knew
How to keep things to myself
I know that's a problem
Really should start to solve
You're not my therapist
You didn't ask for this
And hell, even if you did
That doesn't mean I can
Just empty my baggage out
All over your living room
I need to see someone
Really I know I do
Cause I don't think I can stomach even one more bite of joy